Please, Ladies, There's Plenty Of Me To Go Around!

Here we go, the sign that I am meant to be alone, for a while anyway. I had a very rough day. After getting my hair cut, I went to the orthodontist to get a cavity filled. As odd as it may seem, it was the best part of my day. There was a brand new dentist in the office who couldn't have been older than 25. She was soooooo good looking, like not the hot good looking, but like the yea shes gorgeous. Well, anyway, so I was given gas before they began to drill, and all i could think about when she was drilling was "Oh God, my head is in her boobs" and hey it's not really all that inappropriate, because a) she knew where her boobs were b) I was on gas, so I'm just happy I didn't say it out loud, and c) give me a break I havn't gotten ANYTHING since being home. I then ran into the head dentist in the office at the Apple store, and of course he's like of who did your filling?(her name, which I don't remember), the hot new dentist? and I'm like yea. He got all excited and he's like hey man shes single and young. All I could think was "Oh great he isn't even joking with me. He is 100% serious. I am getting girl advise from an old man.

As I am walking out of the mall a group of four 12 year old girls were like "hey what does your shirt say?", so I turn around and tell them and they go "you're cute. We should see if there really is enough of you to go around." Like WTF they are no older than 15. Has it really come to the point where I can't get a girl may age? I have to settle for girls who are illegal? This sucks! Although it is somewhat funny that I can't get the attention of a girl over the age of 16 in NY.

If it couldn't get any worse I had a half numb mouth and a CUTCO demo to do. I got to the lady's house and I told her right away about my appoinment and numb mouth. She laughed, so I thought things would go well. Ummmm, yea, not so much. she laughed in my face every time that i spoke. Even better was the fact that her daughter who also was about 14 or 15 was hitting on me whenever her mom left the room. Seriously??? Like, no, seriously????? Yea I'm just that lucky. So that was my day basically.

Later Dayz

I Did It.......

Ok, so I actually did it. After many a days wondering whether or not to cut my hair... I DID IT. Here's a pic of it. Let me know what you think, so I know if I have to work on growing it out again before I see you all. Ok well I wouldn't do that, well i couldn't do that, but yea just comment. Oh and I know the picture is dumb, so there is no need to tell me that.




















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All Grown Up And Nowhere To Go

So I have been 110% dedicated to my job the last week, and I knew that it would have some reprocussions, but nothing like this. Last night I was told my family was going out to dinner, but I couldn't go because I had a meeting. Okay I can take that, but when I got home tonight, the house was empty. I called my dad to see where they all were and he said they were out to dinner AGAIN. He was like "yea, I need to go because we are about to be seated". Then I asked where they were and he said that they were at a place less than five minutes away, so I asked what I was going to have for dinner and he said "I don't know but I have to go because we're next to be seated bye", and hangs up on me. Part of me is hurt that I wasn't invited and the ther part of me was hurt that they didn't offer to bring anything back for me. Is this it? Am I like officially "on my own" in a sense. I don't know how I feel about it. This job has so much to offer for me, so I want to do everything I can to take it as far as I can, but it just hit me that I'm leaving for school in less than two weeks. I need a good 48 hours in a day, because I WILL SELL $15K by August 28th, but I want to spend time with my family before I leave again, because being an RA I won't be able to come home whenever I want anymore.

On a lighter note I have made $1103 towards my $15K that will take me to Las Vegas. As our office says "find a way" and I will find a way to sell $15K. Let me know if your parents may be interested lol.

Later Dayz

All The Odds Are In My Favor, Somethings Bound To Begin, It's Got To Happen, Happen Sometime

So here it is, my third post in two days. Between the stay at the hotel and drive home from the airport I noticed something. All of the fifteen year old kids and seventy-five year old peple had either a) relationships or b) more "game" than I have. There were also the not so great looking guys with the beautiful girlfriends or wives. Don't get me wrong, this isn't a wallow in self pity post, but rather it's a post that has to do with the title. All I couold think about, besides "wow i can't get a girl lately," was that there had to be something just waiting around the corner, ready to jump out and smack me in the face. By all means I'm 10000 times more confident in myself then I was four months ago. I figure I'm relatively ok looking (I know TOOT TOOT), but if these guys can get such pretty girls, I should be able to also. There is no reason for old people to be getting more action than I am though. That is just plain wrong. Anyway, I just found it odd that after all this time I have never been able to hold onto any kind of relationship I've ever had. Granted most have been my fault for ending, and I am more than fine with that. I'll take full blame for it, but what I don't get is that when I really want something and I get it, I don't want it anymore, but when I dont' get it, I just want it more and more. I understand that's just human nature, so I'm not going to try and fight it, but it's also that I think I'm afraid that something real could happen (I know what you're thinking "typical guy afraid to commit"). It's not like that though, I just a) want to get what I am looking for and b) DON'T WANT TO MISS OUT ON SOMETHING AMAZING because I decided to be dumb about it. Basically, it comes down to me asking "why them and not me?", which hopefully soon I won't have to ask anymore, but I'm not going to worry about that. I just found it very funny that all these old people get more than I do.

Later Dayz

PICTURES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok here are some pictures I took while in Florida:

This is the view from the hotel room:
















The AMAZING sunset I was talking about:


















The Everglades:
















One of the many fish I caught:


















There's a gator in the water:

All the family at dinner:

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Why Did The Gator Cross The Road? Obviously Not To Get To New York

so i am sitting in the lobby of a Hampton Inn in Fort Myers Florida because the plane home got cancelled.... of course. this has been the first time ive even been able to get onto the internet for more than five seconds in a week. so here comes one hell of a post:

the trip to florida was fine, so the trip started off well. when we got to florida, it was sunny and about 85 degrees. it is such a beautiful state all around, i mean if you looked at the sky there were hardly any trees cutting off the view of the sky. you could see all the way to the horizon almost anywhere you were on the island, the island being Marco Island. the sunsets were unbelievable. so we went on an airboat ride and saw some gators, which was insane they were right up next to the boat, granted they basically are pet alligators to the people who run the airboats, but it was still really cool. before that though, on our way over to the ride a small gator went flyin out of the bushes and sprinted across the highway and into the water. the ride itself was insane too. he would take such sharp turns that i thought the boat would flip over into the everglades. i also learned stuff on the airboat ride too. like while we were riding he said that the reason the glades were so dark in color was cuz of the mangrove trees. they have red and black mangrove trees, which make up the everglades. they give off either a red or black tint to the water, which is how they get their names and also how the glades get its color. the food for the most part was spectacular. for our last dinner on the island i had dolphin (mahi mahi... not flipper) in a mango cherry and banana sauce. it was so good i did a knife and fork dance (i will demonstrate when i get back to lasalle). we also went to this Native American Tiki thing where we learned how to make something that they give to people who they care about most it is real simple but really sortta cool, unfortunately i cant say what it is yet. my sister dad and i went fishing one day and i caught a 5' tarpen on a spinning rod, which really shouldnt have been able to hold the fish on, but yea i finally got him in and he was a bamf i had trouble holding him up by myself. there were also the days where i just laid out on the beach and did absolutely nothing. the only downside to the trip so far was that i was the only one who was above the age of 16 and under 45. that is until thursday when i met this 19 and 20 yr old who were there stayin with their moms. both them had bfs so any kind of hookup was out of the question. they left the day after i met them which also meant that i had no one to hang out with. but anyway ive made this post relatively short so ill get to the shit end of the vacation. we got to the airport today like 3 hrs before our flight was supossed to leave and we saw that the flight was cancelled. so we tried to get on the earlier flight to ny waiting on standby that was delayed and basically left the same time but they only had three empty seats and well there were four of us. of course my mom wouldnt get on the plane w/o my dad and she didnt want me here alone, so we all had to stay. we went downstairs to get r bags only to find out that my bag was the only one that they couldnt get off the plane before it had to leave. so right about now my bag is being unloaded at jfk airport and i have no clothes left. r flight leaves at 11:40 am tomorrow and i am more than ready to be back in ny.

only a few more weeks till im back at school and seeing all my friends again. speaking of which i have only seen one of my friends from high school since i started lasalle. i dont no how i feel about that. i mean im fine with it because i have my friends frm school and other people who i didnt go to school with but know really well, but it's also like well i spent four yrs with you and we said we were real good friends, yet i havent seen you in like a year and it doesnt seem to bother anyone. anyways im off to sleep on the shit beds here and hopefully i'll be back in ny before 3pm tomorrow.

Later Dayz

Words Of Wisdom

So i never put this in my last blog, which by the way was such a task in and of itself to write, since i didnt want to write one, but mongi and i had a real good convo on friday morning. she called me out on some stuff i had never even thought about before. she said i let people talk shit on me and talk down to me. i realized she was right, there are people who i let walk all over me and i do nothing about it. she then told me i better not go for a girk who will do that to me or shed beat me. she was tellin me how shes a classy very independent lady, which we both got a kick out of. idk i have always been the type to put others first and worry about anything else later. part of me just wants to have things work out that i would do just about anythin to have it work out, even if that meant that i didnt get what i want first. she did make me realize though that i am one to tell people that they need to watch out for themselves first, and yet i cant even do that. thats all going to change though. this doesnt mean im goin to turn into this self centered asshole, i mean as much as i want, ill probably still put some people first no matter what, but it will only be thse who i really care about. the thing that really shocked me was that it was mongi who called me out on it, although it really shouldnt have. she has called me out on most things that seemed to be a bad idea. im happy she did though, just another reason I LOVE MY MONGI

Later Dayz

Jersey And Philly Run

this weekend was so much fun. it started out with trying to pick up kate at the train station. but kate didnt no the difference between some of the letters in our alphabet, so it took a little longer than we had expected since she missed her stop. finally she got to new york and we were on our way. we picked up dino at his place and tried to get to lasalle for the 5 o'clock interview for the new md. well needless to say i wasflyin down the turnpike to try and get there on time but we ended up gettin there around 6. i will mention this only so that kate doesnt end up givin me shit for it. we almost rear ended this asian lady when we were like 15 minutes from lasalle, but if kate didnt miss her stop it wouldnt have happened. so we finally got to lasalle unharmed and actually for the traffic we hit we got there pretty quickly. i got to see so many of the people who made my first year at lasalle the amazing time it was. when we got there i got to hang out with sara, daddy mike, mongi, amy, alyssa, and joe.

seeing sara and mike again was great because i hadn't seen either of them since may. the second i saw them it was like we hadnt missed a beat. i cant wait till we're back at school and i get to see them more than once in two months. seeing joe again was nice too. i'm so happy i get a whole year to hang out with him and get to know him better. well anyways since im "not important" i didnt have to sit in on the interviews, which meant hangin out with bishoff, dino, and joe. then we played edward 40 hands and well, i passed out on amys floor about an hour after finishing the 40 hands. needless to say the next day was not fun at all.

then it was off to pams and the fun pool part pt. 2 with kate alyssa and dino. klaz was there, then liz showed up, and amanda. it was really nice to be able to hang out with them again. greg, davey, chris, jo anna, and scott also came by. we were playing basketball and at one point it was 10 on 2 everyone vs me and dino basically and we still kicked ass. then chicken fights which my neck is reminding me about today. basically it was a ton of fun. this weekend was just what i needed to keep up the good mood. i leave for florida 6am on monday and wont be back till sat night like 11. woooo hoooo

Later Dayz

So Much Fun

the last few days have been real nice. i have seen relatives i haven't seen in over 5 years, i got an amazing gift from my grandma, and have been reliving the fun memories of freshman year with the masque. yesterday i went up to ridgefield ct to a family bar b q for my cousins' bday. my friend megan from work was supossed to come but didnt have enough time since she had to go down to north carolina to set up her apartment for school in august. it was still fun to just be up to the house i hadnt been to in a year or two. i took a boat out on the lake and just drifted for a while laying back, relaxing, and thinking about everything that has gone on the last year. i came back to the dock and had some burgers and cake. when i drove my grandma home she asked me to come up for a bit, so i did. then she was like listen you drive me to and from your house so much i decided to get you a little gift. i opened it up and it was a book. no, scratch that, it was better than a book. it's called "The Complete Life's Little Instruction Book" and it's filled with great quotes from a father to a son before he left for college. it is basically what i was doing, writing down inspirational quotes and things like that. its so great i spent most of that evening reading it. then i went out with kara and steph, since it was stephs bday. i thought i was going to be able to drink since i was dd last time and they were like next time were drivin u, but noooooooooo of course i ended up drivin and havin the two annoyin ass girls piss drunk. then we went to the diner and kara decided to jump in the drunk kids car who she liked and steph dragged in the kid she liked into my car. all the sudden it gets quite and they r makin out in my backseat! i was sooooo pissed because they were both drunk enough that if there was anythin else goin on i was goin to kick them out of my car. finally after speedin i got to the diner so the shit heads had to get out of my car. then when we were done i had megan call me pretending to be a drunk friend who needed a ride so i didnt have to drive the fuckers around anymore. i no it sounds mean but the more i am around them the less i want to be with them. so i left and went home to a very warm comfy bed :). then today i went back up to ridgefield to do a cutco appointment with george and carolyn keptcher (carolyn is the blonde chick who was trump's right hand woman on the apprentice) well she is my second cousin and i havent seen them since the whole cassidy family went to italy in '01. it was great to see them again. after the appointment i went home and was layin down on my bed. i looked over and saw my baby book right there so i picked it up and started reaidn through it. its amazing how many things have happened to me since going to lasalle and since hanging around the masque. "because i knew you, i have been changed for good" how true it is. i have changed so much since last summer and i realize that now. i haven't been happier and i owe it all to lasalle, the friends i have made there, and even more so than the friends, the family i have become part of.

so kate and i are invading philly on thurs :D. i get to see some of my bestestes. and btw happy bday sara and congrats to sara and meg on their unholy but happy marriage.

Later Dayz

"I Still Believe It When You Say, It's Another Perfect Day"

so i blew a tire today on my way to see Pirates with kara steph and others. it's k though because i fixed it real quick faced death a few times and came out relatively unscathed. the tired was shredded, like in two pieces and we don't know exactly how it happened. all the sudden the steering wheel just shook like no other and i smelled smoke. pulled over and saw the crazy lookin wheel. put on the spare went to my dads shop put on a new tire with him and all that stuff and now im home.

most would think that this would have ruined my streak of good days........ but alas i am still upbeat about all of it, because i only have to pay like $147 for the new tire, didnt need to get towed, and it was all fixed within an hour and a half of blowin up. i also got a $90 check from the movin company and a $40 tip from the job today. i got to but the rest fo my clothes from abercrombie for half off for work (which put me out $100 but it would normally cost like $200) and well i have been talkin again with daryl (again i know it isnt going anywhere but she is real nice just to talk to). i donno im hopin this attitude lasts with me fr a while because i really enjoy it and there isnt much that can bring me down at this point (knock on wood). i also have a bunch of appointments for vector this weekend like seriously about 15 which is nice cash plus i get to go see family i havent seen in like 2-3 yrs so im hyped about that. ok time for some good old ny pizza and make your own sundaes with my cousins

Later Days

High On Life

i am loving life right now and its not me to be all woo yea life but its just been so amazing lately. lets see where i left off.... ok well i have been talkin to the purple dress girl (daryl) some more :swoon: so yea thats deff played a part in makin my day feel pretty good. and a thanks needs to go out to mary (C-Unit) for the help. 4th of july with kara steph hannah and many others was great. the fireworks at the kensico dam were real good this year. it was nice hangin out with all them. i dont think weve done that since karas prom. i also started playin basketball again. i made $60 hustling a kid from the camp i used to work at, in basketball which is goin to be some nice spending cash. we played $10 the first game and double or nothing and then double or nothing again. so i walked away the first day with $40. he wanted to play again today s i said sure i could use some extra cash. again we played $10 a game and i won again so we did double or nothing again and he lost.... again for the fifth time. so i walked away with $20 today. on the subject of money, work with vector is going pretty well. it's a lot of fun almost as fun as workin at abercrombie, maybe even more so. i honestly dont no wat it is but its like i can actually see when a girl seems interested in me now :). this new girl who just started with vector who is sorta good lookin a bit odd though, was hangin on me all during the meeting and bbq we had today there is also a girl megan who ive been talkin to who works at vector with me. she seems a lot more normal. then there are the girls at abercrombie. and by no means is this supossed to be an egotistical look at how cool i am TOOT TOOT blog. anyone who knows me knows that i deny any interest a girl could possibly have in me. so this is a new thing for me so let me enjoy it for a bit and ill be over it. in other news kate and i almost have our trip together planned. im really excited to see everyone again but especially kate since i havent seen her since senior week :D. im almost out of debt which is nice and idk im sure ive forgotten stuff i wanted to throw in but hey itll go in the next blog. actually this was a lot shorter of a blog than i thought it would be.

Later Happy Dayz

"Hey There! You With The Stars In Your Eyes"

so i have had an amazing last three days. things seem like they cant get much better. it's actually quite amazing and quite timely, if i say so myself seeing as i was living in my car like a month ago.

so saturday, as im sure u all remember from my forever long swoon entry, i went to go see Awesome 80's Prom. i don't know wat it was about the show, but i walked away from it with this swagger that i didn't have before. silly i know but really needed.

sunday i decided to go to the pool and hang out. of course because im lucky enough to be irish i burned within the first hour of being there, but i got some much needed color, even if it was pink. when i got home costello and i were talkin and he was like dude go for it with the girl so i decided i would. i mean really, why not? it's not like i'm goin to see her more than one more time in the next six months. he was right. who knew worst thing that would happen is that i dont get any further than where i already was. so i decided id message her on myspace with a little help from c-unit (i know it sounds sortta sketchy, but i didnt end up seemin that way). this is something that i normally would never have done because i would be too afraid to. i attribute this to the show. again i don't know exactly why, but it did something amazing to me. now i never really expected anything to come of this so there really was no feelings of doubt clouding the fun of it all. she messaged me back askin what i had planned for the 4th so i said nothing too exciting, probably just hanging out in the city and then asked her if she had anything fun planned. she never got back to me, but that's fine because in the end i did something totally out there that put myself on the line. the masque also helped me do this because every single person in the masque has played some part in breaking me out of the shell i was enclosed in when i first came to lasalle.

Today i actually went to vist the old camp i used to work at to say hi to people and also well... hustle some of the guys in basketball. the gym was locked up early so the janitor could go on vacation right away so we never finished the game. the best thing though is i began to pick up on if a girl there was giving off any kind of signals, which is unheard of for me. i also got to play in a charity basketball game. it was so much fun. we raised $200 for every game we won. all the money went to cancer research. we ended up winning 15 games in a row before the people asked us to step off teh court so others could raise money. we walked away 4 hrs later having raised $3000. it was such a great feeling. it just added to the wonderfullness (if that is even a word) that began to began to hit me. i also went to go see fireworks today with sara steph steve and hannah. it was nice to be able to hang out with them again.

so as a quick wrap up: i am feeling the best i've felt in a long LONG time and i am loving it

Later Dayz

"Bye Boyfriend"

ok so mary thank you for one of the most amazing nights of my entire life. Awesome 80's Prom is the best thing i think i have ever been a part of, literally. another thing, since girls get to swoon i have now decided i will swoon too. i am swooning over this one girl in the show, but we will get into that a little later on.

the day started with a trip to my cousins 5th bday bash. not much to say here except it was pretty fun. then i was off to the city for my night on the town with mary a.k.a. c-unit. free show off broadway..... how could i resist? i met up with her at union square and we went to webster hall to go see Awesome 80's Prom. the guy at the door asked for id and mary and i decided i was going to be 23 instead of 18 for the night. it turned out to be a great idea. we head in and this place is decked out in 80's stuff the lights, the music, the decrations, everything. i walked in with my beer and at first i was like wow i will need to be hammered to have fun here, yea not so much. almost immediately i started dancing around having fun and mary and i decided i needed to hit on the swedish exchange student and it was fun we decided wed get married, but then c-unit decided to tell her i didnt vote for her for prom queen, oh well. then this one girl all night kept walkin by and waving and im like wow shes real pretty i really hope she isnt with the cast. this is the swoon girl in the purple dress. so i tried to hit on the prom comittee girl but she wasnt havin it so i brushed her off and walked away. mary and i were dying laughing. then swoon girl...

ok i forwarned mary i was giving swoon girl her own paragraph. so here it goes.... 5'6"ish, brown hair, brown eyes, long purple dress, and just wow. as sara would say swoon like whoa. so she would come up to me and talk with me and did her little act so that i would ask her to dance. so cute. so we were dancing together... i know i normally dont do this. and we role play it all and what not and all im thinkin is wow shes cute, this is fun. so she leaves and comes back later to ask wat happened to my date, c-unit, and i said she left with the foreign exchange student so i was stage and shes like oh good. so we just start talkin and not stuff that had anything to do with the show, which was not good because it just made me swoon harder for her. so she pulls me up when they are talkin about the coach of the football team and how he was leavin and they pulled me up to play jimmy the guy who blocked the field goal that would have tied teh game in the only game that we won all season. it was so fun but then they talked about how i blocked it with my crotch and my balls were in my stomach. thankfully they said coach reached right up there and yanked my balls back down. idk... but they also said i lost my left testicle because of it :(. then more dancing with the beautiful girl in the purple dress, who turns out is also 21, and im 23 (i found that out when we were talking). now were jumping forward but this had me walking tall all night. after the show was over we went to go talk with the producer and so we go down and she was there shes like my boyfriends here and then as we were leavin she goes bye boyfriend and yes i no it was all with the show but mhmmm morale booster like whoa.

and also i had both cheerleaders hitting on me too. granted they were the whorish cheerleader hot, not purple dress girl hot, but yea i was dancing with one who was all bandaged up cuz she passed out drunk and yea she said i reminded her of her docter and that it turned her on. i was laughin so hard dancing with her. then i had the other cheerleader come up to me and shove her ring pop in my mouth im like ummm ok.

i know im leaving a lot out but im sure mary will include anything i forget so check her blog out soon too. the only bad thing is we didnt have a camera for all the things i wound up doing, and there were a lot. it was such a good time the masque needs to go togther we would run that place. and yes if we were able to do that as one of r shows... record breaking ticket sales im calling it now. who doesnt love 80's music, off key singing, dressing up, and dancing around liek a fool?

i also saw one of my friends from grammer school at grand central on the way home she had just seen tarzan and said it was ok, just a lot of people swinging around for a few hours. it was so great to see her and relive what felt like centuries ago.

anyways.... amazing time tonight, thank you mary, morale boosted in a major way over a show, who wouldda thunk it, and bad case of swooning over this one girl, so mary when u get the job with them u r settin me uo with her lol.

Later Swooning

P.S. heres the website check it out youll get a better idea of what its all about, but they dont have the purple dress girl on there :( oh well http://www.awesome80sprom.com/