I saw this at 1am and decided this would help with a lot of the dumb crap thats been bringing me down lately, so here it goes....
List 15 things that you want to say to people but never will. Don't say who they are. Never discuss it again.
1) You missed out. You had your chance and you blew it... and im happy you did cuz i deserve better.
2) You mean the world to me. you never give yourself enough credit for the amazing things you do. its because of you that i had the balls to do the things that scare me. i will never be able to thank you for what youve done. i miss you dearly and i never want to see you leave me. there are times i feel that i dont mean as much to you as others and i try so hard. either way you make my worst day seem so much better by just saying hello to me. i love you and remember you can do anything you want to, just believe in yourself.
3) I have such respect for you just for being here with me this year. i can see why people have said the good things about you and as much as i call out those who talk shit on you i can see where they come from. youre an amazing person and you are unlike anyone else i know. i wish we had more time together, because there is something about you that makes me want to become even closer with you.
4) You let yourself get hurt too easily, and after things happen you never let it go. i hope you see that soon because i ha eto see you upset. you are so important to me and you have seen me through so much shit over the last two years. if i would trust anyone with my life it would be you. you are an amazing friend, i just wish you would let yourself go every now and then.
5) I will always wonder "what if" with you. you are such a great person. you would comfort me when i thought things could not get any worse. i hate that we are not where we were. you are beautiful and dont let anyone tell you otherwise. you make people happy just by being you. you made my freshman year memorable and i will never be able to let you know how much you have done for me and what you mean to me. there are still times where i wil catch myself thinking about last year and the fun we had. the "what ifs" are still around every now and then, but i know you have/will have/had something better and im happy to hear it because you deserve it.
6) Im worried about how you have been acting. your actions are throwing me off and it scares me. i love you and i would do anything for you, i just need to know what you need and whats going on in your head right now. you make me so happy and i would never hurt you or do anything to stand in your way of being happy.
7) You were the reason i am as involved as i am. you led me to smething that has changed my life for good. you let yourself get walked on by those who you consider your friends. stand up for yourself, and take control of the situations you are put in. you know what youre doing so say something. you tend to worry about things and i wish i could help but you need to work some things out yourself and you will see how much better things turn out because of it.
8) I sort of hate you. you have hurt me and my friends and you dont seem to give a shit. you need to grow up reach up there and maybe pull out what little balls you have and be a man.
9) I wish you were around more. you can say some dumb things and act pretty stupid but i still care about you a lot. i wish we could have gotten to know eachother better, but hey hopefully youll realize this before its too late.
10) You are a cuttie we have conected on such a higher level this year, especially november. it has been such a blast and you dont know how hard it was for me to say goodbye to you. keep me in mind cuz youre on my list ;)
11) I said i didnt like you because i felt threatened by you. you are a good person and im sorry for anything ive done to wrong you. youre not only a good person but a good friend. you will do great things with your life and i wish i could be the kind of person you are.
12) I love being around you because you make my day so much brighter. i have only seen you in a bad mood maybe twice and any other time you always have a smile on your face. its nice to see when i feel crappy.
13) Even though i call you a nerd a lot, you are an amazing person. i wish i could have gotten to know you better and i always have had a crush on you. youre pretty much the type of girl every guy wants and any guy would be lucky to have. you are funny smart beautiful and caring. dont ever change because you are so amazing just the way you are.
14) What happened to us? we used to be so tight and now i hardly hear from you. im not too hurt because i have something amazing at school. it would be nice to relive the good times we had together back in the day. call me if you find a minute for me, but dont worry im not holding my breath anymore.
15) You are nuts and possibly one of the funniest people i know. i wil never understand though how you can let this one person bring you down. your friends are always there for you no matter what, dont forget that. you bring something to the group that is indescribable but i am so thankful you have it in you.
ok so heres to a new year that probably has more blind turns in store for me than last year did. may they not hurt to bad when i run face first into the walls, cuz i have a feeling ill be doing that A LOT. oh well heres to no regrets and taking it one day at a time.... god help me
Later Dayz
