Ok Ok Jersey Really Is A Godsend (Believe It Or Not)

ahhhhhh relief does not begin to describe how i felt to be away from the house and with one of my best friends. for as much as i rag on jersey for well.... everything, it was the one thing that has helped me get through this boring ass summer. thank you so much pam for showing me how amazing jersey can be. between boost slurpees, ghost hunting followed by diner runs, swimming with some of my quadropod buddies and dino, and just running around south jersey meeting people and having a damn good time, i dont think i can say anything bad about jersey anymore. so thanks again to pam and jersey for givin me a weekend to remember.

when i finally got to pam's house after a relatively long ride, we went over to go see pam's friend jen. thats was sortta a funny trip especially when i walked in i was yelled at to get oout of the room cuz jenna wasnt "presentable". i had to wait in the living room with pam till she came back down but yea i had such a good time talkin and hangin out with pam and jenna. ok so boost slurpees..... good stuff. supossedly they are pretty popular by pam and i can see why.

after we got back to pam's i was told i was going ghost hunting with her jenna and some of their friends. ummmm ghost hunting yea sure ok. now granted ive had my own experiences with a ghost, but for some reason i laughed at the idea of ghost hunting. so we go out and find an amazing watchtower in the woods. you could see forever out into jersey it was really beautiful. we decided to go take a walk in the woods cuz it was still light out and then when we decided to come back we saw a car drivin up the road. we all freaked a bit cuz well hey i dont need to be gettin picked up by a ranger in a different state. it ended up being an old woman with her dog. so we left there and decided to go to a different place. im drivin my car and this dirt road is skinny as hell, but im a new york driver, it doesnt scare me. i dont no if it was the boost slurpee or the sheer rush of the outting, but i was hyped i felt my arms get all tingly and i was ready for just about anything. so we pull over at this demolished building and hang out there for a bit. we went for a walk in the woods and yea that turned out be a wonderful idea. while walkin one of the guys sees somethin behind us, so we start to walk a little faster so were not eatten by a ravage beast or some crazy ass piney's dog. we jump in the cars and start to jet out of the path when all the sudden a set of head lights turns on, but there wasnt any path for it to have come out of so we dont no where it even came from. it kept speeding up and we began to freak well billy d and jenna did i was in the second to last car so we figured if they got caught then we would have to worry about our asses then lol. it was a true test of new york city drivin and i would say that i passed with flying colors doggin potholes while flyin at like 60 mph on a dirt road. needless to say we all got out safe and alive. some of us were more shaken than others (its ok billy we didnt lose any respect for u even though u cried and peed urself). we hit up the diner and got some food and almost got into a fight, i wish we couldda thrown down with those bitches.

on sunday we went to mass and the had some REALLLLLLLY good doughnuts. then we went out to get a movie Transamerica which is a crazy weird movie but it was ok in retrospect. then we had a woodward family bar-b-q, which was super cool and i love her family. so then dino and elise came over since she was visiting dino in philly. we all went swimming, watched shakespeare and just sat arouond talking and joking around. it was great to see her and dino again.

monday we went over to cold stone and got some free ice cream cuz of pams connections wooo hooo. after that we hit up billy d's place for a bar-b-q and i got to see all of pam's bestests. then sadly i had to leave for home.

all in all it was an amazing trip and i wish it wasnt over but hey that just means im that much closer to going back to school and seeing everyone again :)

Later Dayz

"Dazed And Confused"

I am sooooo f&^%in lost. i mind as well have been spun around in circles and dropped in the middle of asia. idk why i used asia, but it works. so many things have been goin down lately and im not sure how to deal. i mean im dealing dont get me wrong, but i dont know if im dealin with it the right way. its nothing to serious just enough to make me feel it, let me know its there, doesnt let me forget it either. im lucky though i have a great group of people who are more than willing to let me bitch to them about it and they never complain. i love them for that. i wish i could return the favor to them. you guys knwo who you are. things are bound to get better though because now i have work to take my mind off things and jersey will be a gift from god. i need a break from my normal rutine. i need to have an escape from reality even if it's just a weekend, because a weekend with pam can cure anything. the weeks following..... well we'll see how it goes. things wont get worse before they get better though that im sure of. i wont let it. so i gave some advice tonight and i said that you just had to go with it and deal with the bad stuff cuz it is outweighed by the good...... i wish i could believe that myself. ive also found out today that people who you would never expect may say things about others that they trash on them for and yet that person can do the exact same thing and not even notice it. idk im not a fan of that. anyways its gettin late and for once i have to get up early for work...... finally woo hoo. so work at the moving company 8am-5pm and then abercrombie from 6pm-10pm

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Box O' Fun

so its 8:30 am and im up writing a blog. why you ask? well, when you dont have a job to go to you tend to be able to write as many blogs as you want and when your mom hires a cleaning lady to come at 8:15 and you have to let her in, well...... yea you tend to be up pretty damn early. hence me being able to write this blog at the time i am.

so i got this box yesterday and it was filled with some real god stuff. if i was going to be reminded i was still a masque kid this deffinately did the job. it had a bouncy ball, bubbles, PEZ, Pashe 10, coloring book with crayons, which i've already started to use, a cuddly bear, and an amazing cd. thank you soooooo much sara because you have killed my summer bored for the moost part. i'm sortta stuck in the house because i can't afford to be wasting gas if i dnt have a job to get gas money, so to get this package really made my week.

it's almost the weekend, which means i'm that uch closer to working at abercrombie again. i love working at that store. even though the pay is crap i need the discount and the people and atmosphere is great. but really im excited because the weekend means i get to see my pammy again :) i can't wait shes promised me a weekend of fun and in turn i've promised her a breakfast of new york bagels. i really need this break from home because even the little things are beginning to get to me here. it's goin to be real hard to put up with my family till august 10th and i know that sounds mean, but it's true. i still havn't seen a single person from high school and i might be gettin played y a high school chick, which i will not allow to happen. i should have expected somethin since i really am not supossed to have any luck with girls. i may have to swear em off for a week or two. i know i know the winner of the volleyball award swearing off women, but it's got to be done. whatever now that i'm going to see my pammy I'M TOO EXCITED TO SLEEEP!!!!!!

Later Dayz

Poor Poor College Student

ok so its the 6th day of no work and i dont have any work tomorrow. i'm no longer pissed i am fuckin livid!!!! i need money for tuition and these damn day workers are takin my money from me. ok so heres the question do i quit my $12 an hour job for my $7 an hour job at abercrombie? i enjoy abercrombie, i mean its a fun place to work, but the pay is crap compared to working with the moving company. so i've wasted sooo many days sittin at home when i could have been makin great money. ahhhhhhh this sucks. anyways if anyone is bored and wants a tour of the greatest city in the world let me know because chances are i'll be sittin at home lookin for somethin to do.

Cuz When It "Hurts So Good"

so once again im sittin on my ass at home with nothing to do. why you ask? well that's simple. it is due to a douchebag company that is running itself into the ground. fraioli and quigley moving comapny, although really good pay ofr someone like me at $12 an hour plus tips, is making me even more broke than i was in the beginning. i've been homoe for 9 days now and i have only worked three of those days. last summer i would have been working 7 or 8 days by now. the company is goin to hell with no customers and a staff comprised of mostly illegal immigrants. normaly i would say watever but i need the cash to visit people and pay for college so basically FUCK YOU ILLEGALS WHO ARE TAKIN MY JOB!!!!!!

now that i have that off my chest i will go on with what i had originally intended to post..... so ive been a little off the last week or so to say the least and im sorry bout that but seriously thank you guys for helpin me along u no who u r and for any friendships that i may have made uncomfortable even for two minutes im sorry im over it and good to go... i promise

since i had the day off i figured it would be a great day to start the "kick myself in the ass till im back to the guy i was a year ago" workout plan. it was wonderful two, two hour long lifting sessions and an hour and a half run. i love lifting especially when your body gets so tired it feels like your muscles are wrapped up in cellophane and theyre ready to rip open. i know im a bit of a masicist but what can i say i love the push to go one step further than you thought your body was ever physically capable of going, getting that one extra rep in before letting the weights fall. benched a new best which im happy with and by the weekend i hope to be lookin somewhat like i was the end of my senior year in high school. cuz although the pic aint all that classy i was lookin relatively beast. so well see when i can get back to that.

Later Dayz

My Pammy

I LOVE PAM WOODWARD!!!!! She is the best friend ever and everyone should know that. i miss her so much and i cant wait for next weekend when i get to see her again :) love you pam thanks for everything see you soon!!!!!

Oh What A Night

no matter what anyone says i think da vinci code was an amazing movie. it was so much like the book i loved it. its one of very few movies that i would go see again in the theaters. it was probably one of the best things that has happened this break hopefully it wont be the last especially since it looks like im goin down to jersey for next weekend.

ok so ive had to come to terms with a lot of things lately. i see it as a good thing and a well a shitty thing too. some of it i needed to deal with eventually so i guess its better i get it over with now as opposed to later. i tried to get some stuff out in the open so it could be taken care of tonight but yea that didnt go as planned. eventually somethin needs to be said but i guess it wont be tonight. there are so many people who know yet who should no doesnt. idk this is just me ramblin at this point. so thats that i started hangin out with this great girl but i havent even really been able to truely apprechiate it. so no more bitchin im just goin to roll with it no more worryin about things i have no control over im takin what i have an being thankful for it

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Thanks Pam

so i thought i was fine when i left school. i figured "ok i can be a sophmore now." i got thorugh all the hard times this year, not exactly with grace, but i got through it. from school work to lacrosse to the masque, inductions, kiss the wall, and finally watchin gwen walk at graduation, it all has made such an impression on me. the people ive met this year have changed my life and i will never forget them for that. now im home, nowhere near any of these amazing people, and i begin to wonder...... if i made the impression on these people like they said i did, who is to say that someone else cant and wont do it better than me next year. and all this is thanks to pam after readin her blog. as much as i love u pam, i can hate u sooo much for getttin dumb ideas like this in my mind. i mean we all know she has nothing to worry about shes great on stage and is just has this presence in whatever she does, whether she admits it or not is a different story. now dont think this is a whole pity post im just writing things out to see if it will slap me in the face and say im being dumb. really though pam does acting and shes great at it and kate well she does such an amazing job at tech but im just there i mean sure i do tech but nothin to the extent of tech and i dont act. all i have going for me is being the funny kid or giving massages or being the drunk who does upside down pushups. im fine with that being me but unlike pam or kate its nothing that cant be imitated or improved on and i guess i just worry that as much as people say im liked now, its easy to be looked over when you cant back it up with stellar acting skills or crazy experience and talent in tech affairs. idk i just love where i am right now and ive never been one to like change but ive alwasy been willing to deal with it when need be. i guess ive never been so happy with how things r that i would do anything to keep things the same. i also get the fact that the sophmores/juniors however you want to refer to them as went through it and sara has been so great in trying to convince me that although it is a change it wont be too bad. im a jealous person by nature i love being the center of attention even if i act like i dont. i know ill get over it well i hope i do and i really am lookin forward to the new frosh. i hope there is someone who reminds me of myself too, because i have been changed for the better because of the masque and i wish everyone could go through that change. idk so many mixed emotions about next year and ive been rambling for a long time now about nothing. no matter what happens next year ill still be part of the masque which is all that really matters i joined cuz i wanted to feel like a real part of the masque family and i have that now so i shouldnt complain.

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Are You Thinkin of Me Cuz I'm Thinkin of You

sooooo much stuff happened this week at senior week. the good the bad and the ugly doesnt begin to describe it. it started off sortta slow but thankfully i had a few people to help me get thrugh it with a kick ass game of manhunt and mafia. redoing the theatre was a lot of work and a whole hell of a lot of paint fumes, but all in all it was a good time. the green room looks amazin with the newly painted bathrooms and makeup room, a boom-able "no boom room", and a new place for the power tools :) next year is goin to be so nice to work on tech.. so much easier with all the work we did to bad we have a show that will drive us all insane.

ok so if i learned one thing from senior week its that you can drink every night and it never gets old. literally every night there was somethin goin on. it was either Dave was havin a party in his room or the C71 true farewell gathering. either way i was wrecked and yea well beer pong deff helps the beer go down easier. once again i ran the table every night i played at Dave's. at C71 i had a drunken heart to heart with dino again and this time after we talked about how amazing fax machines really are. i mean think about it how does it send pictures and letters and numbers to anothewr fax with no scanning just a telephone signal???? well leave it to dino to have me thinking after school is out and i am drunk. but yea there were some nights where i was the sad drunk and i screwed a few things up with people this week but thankfully we talked and were all chill now. i needed these people the whole week and i was dumb enough to push them away for a while. they know why i did it and i hope they can forgive me because i realize what i did now and i deffinately regret it. i did get to bitch out the SDR up at north multiple times which was always fun especially when she thought that sara and another girl could carry the fridge down three flights of stairs wat a bitch that woman(if you can call her that) was, but yea i was crazy heated from that.

so then came graduation and wow my m.o.m. is officially a college grad. shes worked so hard for it and i am so proud of her for everything shes done. all of the seniors looked so great today they all looked so happy and i couldn't be more happy to have seen all of them walk today. it sortta put a surreal spin on things too. now its like official im a sophmore and i had such a great time this year but where the hell did all that time go?? well it was fun and ill never forget what ive learned this year and the people ive met this year has changed my life even with all the up and downs i wouldnt change it for the world.

now this is probably the most insane thing to have happened to me all week..... so we were watchin RENT and we had chinese food. i dropped a bit of sauce on my phone and went to wipe it off before it ruined my phone. i picked up my phone and didnt realize there was sauce n the back of the phone too. of course the phone slipped out of my hand and into the boilin hot container of sweet and sour sauce. so without thinkin i grab my phone out of the sauce and then realized how much my hand burned. so oim shakin my hand tryin to get the sauce off my hand and so it went everywhere. then mongi called my phone and i actually tried to answer idk i wasnt thinkin to well. so my phone esentially turned into a pager. i could get and send texts and see if people called me but i couldnt talk or hear people talking to me. now that i look back on it i think it was pretty damn funny. sara and i also gave each other tattoos with marker at daves wen we were wasted... good times

next is summer and work at the moving company and abercrombie. hopefully ill have some time for fun in jersey and Pa. i need to see people because all of them have become such a large part of my life in such a short time. so i will do whatever i need to in order to keep them there and not have to take a 3 month break from them all. ok well i need to start unpackin so here is to all my seniors and my wonderful friends hope to see you all soon. thanks again to the people who stood by me this weekend wen shit got real bad you know who you are and you will never know how much youve done for me love you all

Later Dayz

WOW I WAS GONE!!!!!!!!!

ok so first let me start by appologizing for all those who hurt their head by trying to read and understand my last post i was gone and was not lookin back... but such a fun night. and just so we dont forget i ran that table

im finally done my freshman year in college.. well i dont want to say finally because with the end of the year comes a lot f things i dont really want to deal with like graduating seniors, friends who wont be back next year, and of course working with the moving company and abercrombie. is it worng to wish i was back at school? i mean sure i miss my family, but we get along so much better when we are a few hours away and not seeing eachother everyday. ive made so many amazing friends, two of which live in new york, so with working so much im afraid i wont be able to see them that much and i think that is the one thing that would keep me sane this summer. whatever since im bein an ra ill be back like the second week in august and there is still all of senior week so everything is chill. ok off to do laundry and try to unpack some of the shit i brought back with me

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I Can't Believe It's Really Over

so i dont understand how a whole year can go by and i ma lost in he process. the friends i have made will never be forgotten, even though some are leaving the school. never will i meet such a group of people like i have in since joining the Masque. gwen has done so much for me and i wish there was something i could do for her at this point. i have never felt such a connection to a person besides gwen, that is until i saw sara. therse two girls and gwen would have blown the final to piece without a secind thought. i wish i had the determinataion and drive that these girls had.
crzy fun today first i thought i missed my 10 30 final but it trd avtoeh mebiele in tyto be 12 3o so i was sooo happy. and then after that we went to a fake prom/ case race and i dont want to make and her nice. watever i ran the table tonght and "I DONT EVEN FUCKIN CARE"
well yea so ive been crazy week fun need and lift. u gt thit serioysly.
k so im out for this enight a count to be di ASSA. ok well i will se u oll tomoorrow