"Being Grown Up Isn't Half As Fun As Growing Up"

ok so originally i had no real title cuz well nothing really big has happened lately. then i realized i started a new job and my sister's sweet sixteen (part 1 of 2) was this weekend. i mean the new job with vector and cutco is goin well. im makin some good cash and the first week is always the hardest because its up to u to find the first few clients. so yea for all those against vector dont worry im still keepin my eyes open for anything thats at all sketchy. home is boring but this job gets me out and driving and when i go see pam the whole trip will count as a write off if i sell any knives there wooo hooo. yesterday was my sisters sweet sixteen party with the family. ill talk about that later on. yea so home's well.. home.

i noticed one thing since ive been back. home is not the same i feel like ive missed out on so much and there is no way to catch up on it. no one seems to want to help me catch up on it either. then with my sisters birthday party i didnt no when it started or who was coming. i knows it doesnt seem like a big deal but when people called and asked what time the party was and i said i didnt no they were like "well dont you live there" or "i mean u r her brother shouldnt you no" thats when it really hit me how much things have changed and it didnt get much better after that. the party was great dont get me wrong but all my aunts were like yea "u see cameron (the next oldest guy to me in the family) i guess he took over for you now that your old and in college" and i saw all them running around follwing his every move and i really miss that now. not the whole running around and being drenched in sweat thing, but the idea of it. idk i dont mind change but hell im an attention whore. thats where anything bad that has happened this summer came from. it was a result of me wanting to be the center of all things. my cousins all constantly talk about me and i love it they all know how old i am, where i go to school, all that stuff but to not be their "ringleader" i guess is the best word to use here, just sortta sucks. i hate to not be needed by people and i dont want it to be that way since i am hardly ever around with school and work.

Later Dayz