Real Men Don't Cry

so masque formal was the shit i never have had such a good time at a formal. everyone was so happy and it was such a laid back fun night where all the theatre kids gt to dress up and act all classy. i loved rockin the tux. and winning the volleyball award was awesome... i don't have to whore myself out anymore lol. and only one word can describe all the ladies there.....wow..... every single one of them looked immaculate.

and this title...... well yea thats crap because i spent the last 17 shortest hours of my life ballin my eyes out like i little girl and i will never forget it. Kiss the Wall is probably the best experience i've had with the Masque or LaSalle only because i spent almost a whole day, 17 hours, with the people and friends i care about most Sara's mom said that no one is worth talking about for 16 hours and she was right i don't think 16 hours is enough. hell, i didn't think 17 hours was enough. i just met some of these seniors and it hurts so much to let them go you'd think i knew them since high school. i would be lying if i said i didn't think it was going to be hard, but i never thought i'd be as much of a mess as i was last night and this morning. as much as i tried to get myself prepared for it, watching Gwen get up on the chair and kiss the wall and then take her final bow broke my heart. i have never been attached to someone so much as i am to her and i have never made a friend like the one i have in her so quickly. i wish i had more time, but i know even if i did get another year i'd wish for the same thing next year. thank you for all those who were watchin out for me last night, who knew how hard it was for me to try to keep it all together, Kate, Pam, Elise, Meg, and especially Sara. the only part about last night that i really enjoyed was being able to sit with you on the couch crying and you saying you wish you could protect me from this stuff. that meant more to me than you will ever know.

To Gwen, even though i knew i would not be able to speak last night, and well i didnt really, i hope that you can see what an impact you've made on my life in the short time i've known you. you will never understand how much i love, respect, and look up to you. seeing you kiss the wall last night was the hardest thing i've ever done and i guess in a sense thats a good thing, but i didn't want it to be you. youv'e been my support for the time that i've been here and i don't know what i will do without you next year, even though ur living a little while away. there is so much i want to tell you that i could never express in words so for now i guess i'll have to settle for an I love you and i will see you later because i will not let this be a good bye.........
later dayz